-MOVED FROM WORDPRESS ON 3 JANUARY 2014-
I know its already past Jan 1 and now I’m talking about resolutions blabla. I guess its’ never too late. There’s loads and loads and loads of resolutions that have to be completed by this year or at least, most of them. Especially when its the most hectic period of my life ; o levels. I wished I didn’t have to take any major exams. But i guess, this is how Singapore’s systems works. & I should actually be blessed for what is given to me instead of grumbling about it. I’ve realised that I had too much bad habits so its really time to change them (or at least some) So here are my resolutions.
1. procrastinate less
For the past three years in my secondary school life , I’ve been procrastinating too much. ( I had to even procrastinate to blog) I had no idea why I even manage to promote as a senior. I guessed it was all luck and I scraped through the system. ( even tho I wasn’t one of those that my teacher mentioned ) This year , being one of the most important year for me, I MUST STOP PROCRASTINATING.
2. Love more , hate less
I’ve been gossiping too much for the past few years too. And to be honest, I really hate myself for doing that. I mean I always hate how people talks behind my back and I shouldn’t do what I do not what I do not want people to do to me. I you get what I mean. lol. What goes around, comes around. I know it is going to be difficult because gossip is like part of my daily activity but I’ll try. And because of my gossiping , I start hating people. And judging people. And people in return hate me too. sigh.
3. study more
It will be a miracle if I could actually , study more….. But since it’s my o level year, I will try my best to study more…. hopefully….
4. Be more confident
both physically and mentally. I didn’t have enough courage to do loads of things to be honest. As a student leader in my school , I don’t think I have as much courage as those in my batch. I didn’t dare to say the pledge in front of the whole school , Whenever I had to make an announcement to my juniors or anyone, I would stumble, Y E S. For 4 freaking years as a student leader in my school , I still do stumble. & by mentally, I mean cut the negativity and start thinking positive.
both physically and mentally. I didn’t have enough courage to do loads of things to be honest. As a student leader in my school , I don’t think I have as much courage as those in my batch. I didn’t dare to say the pledge in front of the whole school , Whenever I had to make an announcement to my juniors or anyone, I would stumble, Y E S. For 4 freaking years as a student leader in my school , I still do stumble. & by mentally, I mean cut the negativity and start thinking positive.
5. preach what I teach
Okay maybe not what I teach , since I don’t have the authorities to teach people. I mean preach what I say. Because I sometimes will forget and all hell break lose. lol. Take the most recent incident that happen, I told my team to believe in themselves and they are halfway there but I can’t even believe in myself…..
6. love myself more
I’m always so insecure about everything. My body, my grades, my trust for others , basically everything about me. I always doubt myself ; what I do and what I think. Thats why I lack confidence and self-esteem. I always compare myself with others and I would feel like a loser. I used to love dancing but after hearing what others comment about my dance moves, my bubbles burst and I gave up. Even though, up till now, I wished I didn’t give up dance….
7. panic less.
I realised that I had a lot of panick attack this year. Okay not really panic , more of like paranoid. I get paranoid over little things that I wished never happened. After a test, I would think that I didn’t do well when in fact, I knew I put in my 100% . During a performance , I would make myself nervous, even tho I knew that I learnt my lines well and I practiced well and hard enough, then I would ruin my show because I’m paranoid about so many dumb things.
8. others before self.
I guess I had been a princess for the past few years. I really do enjoy my princess moment and no, I wouldn’t give it up. But I have to think about others. I’ve not been putting myself in others shoes, instead I’ve been blaming people instead of being selfless and thinking from their perspective. I think I was really pretty selfish for thinking about my perspective. so time to change this shitty bad habit of mine.
9. maintain a healthy lifestyle.
This links back to point number 1 , I always procrastinate when I have to workup. and I always end up doing when I feel like doing. For the past 2 months, I only worked out twice. yup TWICE. minus the weekly walk to school and pe lessons. TWICE. damyummmmm. I really need to work those fats out. Actually, I want abs…….isit weird for girls to want abs……..
10. Cherish the people I love.
I realised that I’m always focusing on the people whom hurt me and never even bothered about how I feel. & I should really stop that shit. I know that I always have people by me and I should stop going to them only because I didn’t have friends. ( fml , I feel so mean now ) I should really stay by those people around me since they are always showering me with extreme love and care….
11. NOT REGRET WHAT I DO. BC YOLO.
okay thats all I have , at least for now. If I have any, I would edit it….. I really hope I will fulfill those resolutions, I mean whats the point of making those resolutions then?
* a few goals I wanna achieve by the end of this year*
1. Do well for O’s and get into a JC
2. Love everyone and spread as much positive vibes as possible
3. meet up with the people who I really miss and break the awkwardness….
4. start a bully-free campaign in social media or in school
5. leave a legacy in school
6. get famous (JK)
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